Over today

I am so over this day!!! I cannot handle it. I've read that it does get harder as time goes on and f*&k has it ever gotten harder!!! I could curl up and die! It was 3 months yesterday. 3 months. It feels like eternity and then again it feels like yesterday. I hate this life. I love my kids, but I hate this life. I hate it so much. I dream about him more. I have totally come out of the fog and I cant stand it. I hate this life.